- Step 1: Get teddy bear and boyfriend's undershirt
- Step 2: Wrap undershirt around bear
- Step 3: Comfortably sleep while cuddling teddy bear that smells like your boyfriend, eliminating anxiousness.
so I’m just gonna lie here
To be completely honest, I’m extremely depressed.
I’ve been unstable for a long time now, for about 10 or 11 years it seems. My depression has been getting worse and worse, and I’ve noticed myself becoming increasingly more unstable as time has passed.
As much as it pains me to do this, and as much as I’m going to miss everyone, I have to do it. I’m tired of existing. I’m tired of losing friends, tired of getting yelled at by parents, and tired of disappointing and failing everyone. I’m tired of being a failure and a loser, and that’s why I have to do it. There are just some people in this world who just aren’t cut out for life and it’s terms, and I am one of those people. If I don’t do this now, then I will continue to be unhappy for the rest of my life. No amount of medication, food, or drugs can ease the pain I feel inside.
I feel so empty. It’s like nothing can make me happy anymore. Sure I pretend to be happy, but it’s not genuine.
And it’s not like I like posting shit like this on tumblr, because I know that when a few of my friends see it they’re going to freak, and the rest of the reactions are probably going to be negative.
Look, I know it’s a selfish thing to do, and I know I won’t be able to take it back, and I know it will probably be a big mistake to do, but I have to do it. If I am the master of my life, then why can’t I choose when I get to die? Why should I have to continue living in an unhappy situation, when I know the solution is right in front of me?
I know that suicide is a horrible thing, and I will probably piss a lot of you off (that care) but it’s my decision, and nothing you can say or do can change my mind.
Whoa, whoa, whoa. This is some really heavy stuff. I don’t want to sound cliche or generic, but you really don’t have to do this. There are other ways. I know I don’t really know you, but I don’t want you to die. Please, think about what you’re considering doing, call the suicide prevention lifeline. 1-800-273-8255 is the number. You shouldn’t just give up living because things are bad now. Life isn’t a stoic thing; it moves and changes, and it will change for the better, trust me. I know you said that nothing can change your mind, but please, just give life one more chance.
I need to wake up at 6 tomorrow, I can’t
You’re in the exact middle of the bed I can’t fit on either side of you it’s too small
i got a rock
To Honor God
Crowned With Laurel
To Be Born-From Natalia
for the record, Natalie means “born on Christmas”
good name, boring meaning
i already knew that but apparently my name is french? thats kind of cool i guess
GENDER: FeminineUSAGE: EnglishPRONOUNCED: mag-NO-lee-ə [key]Meaning & HistoryFrom the English word magnolia for the flower, which was named for the French botanist Pierre Magnol.
It also says the diminutive is “Nola”. I’ve had some people call me “Nolie” before and I like it, but its mostly Mags or Maggie. I think I’d have to start introducing myself as Nolie to get it to stick but I aint rememberin’ that shit
The baby name book my parents got my name from said it meant “Sun” :[
so does this make me a fucked up individual or
i can’t stop laughing oh my god someone call for help
AM I ANIME YET?
I am so animu it hurts
I don’t look pleased. But there wasn’t a choice for bags under the eyes so yeah
So fucking kawaii. God I need a haircut.
i can only dream of being this fucking kawaii
i am the best at gaia
daym you’re rich as shit
cash rules everything around me
I’m just gonna…. leave this here……….
Why yes, I DID have three Gaia accounts at one time.
I can’t remember my password OR my email for my account, but here’s how I left my avatar:
You are now probably wondering when I’m going to start updating regularly again. Here is my projected date for the first page of Act 6.
I know, you are probably tired of waiting around for content by now, and probably aren’t too psyched for another two weeks of downtime. But, there is seriously no way I can dive right back into production at the moment. I have to prepare some stuff. The rapid pace of updates in the past has always only been possible due to a continuously mounting stream of preparation and forethought, and I have had time for neither over the past two months while dealing with this animation.
I WILL however plan to post a short intermission between now and then. I will let you know when this date approaches.
Then, when the 11th hits, we will be ready to rock again without looking back.
I really want to draw EOA5 things but I have all this HOMEWORK.
I really want to buy MSPA merchandise but I don’t have any MONEY.
I really want to watch [S] Cascade again but my computer is a SLOW BITCH.
As implied by the title, EOA5 got me having a lot of feelings about Sollux, so you better batten down the hatches because here it comes.
This was such a solid reminder of why Sollux is so awesome. So many people dismiss him as just being a “boring asshole” and it always really bugs me because if you look between the lines, at the things he actually does, there is just so much amazing shit.
Like seriously, the first time you see him, he’s in the process of trying to get the teams together because he thinks it will save the world. He knows playing the game will result in his death - he’s seen it. But he’s willing to accept that. It isn’t until Aradia tells him the truth that he changes his mind, because it was never about him surviving in the first place. He just wanted to save the fucking world.
Next thing you know he’s entering the game last and dying in order to get Feferi into the Medium in time. Now, it’s never explicitly spelled out, but it doesn’t even seem like Feferi and Sollux knew each other that well prior to that point, but he put her on first priority.
I’d been really worried about how he would die, because I knew it was coming, but EOA5 covered it in about the best way I could hope for. It followed this theme of his character perfectly. He died doing what he had to do to save the others, and that was that. He didn’t hesitate, he just took the bullet for the team like he always has.
Sure, he may act like a dick. Sometimes, he may act apathetic and unmotivated. But looking at the duality between his words and his actions is where his character’s real coolness comes from, in my opinion. He doesn’t talk it up, but when it comes down to it, he’ll do the right thing and he’ll do it selflessly.
As Feferi put it, he really is a hero.
Good patron. Best troll.
a raffle for 1 color digital drawing…only one
to celebrate how far i’ve come along since i first joined tumblr 9//<//9
i’ve met a lot of lovely people and have improved quite a bit since then 6u6
1 reblog=1 entry
1 entry per blog
“likes” will not count
this giveaway will end once this post reaches 50 reblogs and then i’ll announce a winner and contact via askbox.
i’ll work on the winner’s drawing when i’m done with my commissions~